Posting

Of late, I have had the drive and desire to post. But I simply do not have the time.

There are many things I want to share with the people who still floating in and out of here, mainly to do with teaching. One of them is blogging with the students. Another is how I’m being received in the school, and what I’m trying to do there (other than, you know, teach).

Away from teaching, I have been reading poetry. A lot of poetry. I think this is probably because of the brevity of them, but as well as the impact. I feel as though (and I feel confident in saying this) that I have finally ‘awoken’ to poetry and understand it far quicker than I used to. I would attribute that to having read ‘Paradise Lost’. But that’s a post in and of itself.

My ‘community’ (albeit diminishing) of blogging has been putting up all sorts of interesting things that I want to comment on at length, but just can’t. Of note, Jim’s discussion about universities (which is always spirited between us!) and Neil’s complete change when it comes to blogging. Both of these I would want to talk about, but I cannot find the time.

So many important and big things have been happening in my friend’s lives that have caused me to stop and reflect. St. Ive’s newest arrival … the Ombudsman’s race towards home ownership … my trip to Hong Kong with Mr. Rabbit. All things that have actually caused me a lot of thought of late, and yet I can’t stop to think about them long enough to write.

Where this blog also used to be a place where I could vent/express/mull/despair over my personal life’s events, I don’t even have time to do that. It’s actually proving to be not very healthy, as I find I am internalising most (if not all) of the emotions that I used to be getting out. I can feel this having a negative effect on the way I think and feel and act. I am more worried about the fact that I don’t know where this type of behaviour (the internalising) is going to take me, as well that I might be damaging what you might call me ‘emotional health’.

Over the past month or so, I’ve come to actually solidify what my ‘world view’ is, and my beliefs associated with it. That would be a long post if ever I were to write it.

My apathy towards politics in general has, in fact, turned into a hyper-critical mind. And, from this, I am occasionally getting ideas for government policy (not with any great depth or legal consideration) that I would like to share.

Of course, there are the long standing things I have always wanted to blog about. And these things are now taking a solid shape in my mind.

I think, at the end of the day and when it comes to this blog, I am going through what I always used to go through at uni. My best blog posts (i would argue) and my most frequent activity came when university assignments and pressure were piling on. It kicked my brain into gear, and the blog gave me an outlet to express the ideas that I could form while thinking critically and using high-order skills with the assessments. As a way of putting it, this blog was a side-effect of thinking for university.

Now, though, I’m still thinking but am plum out of time to actually allow the side-effect to take place.

And that frustrates me.

This is hardly a post to say how monumentally busy I am and others aren’t, or that I’m working harder than others. It’s just a post, and nothing more.

Thomas.

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